I Couldn't Move

From: Alina (etukre@xxx.lt)
Story type: OBE
Location: my home, LIthuania and in a hospital
Source: Form Submission

HI,

I've just read articles about other OBE's. I wanted to share my experienes.

I often have a feeling waking up at night or early in the morning and being sure I am awake, but just can't move, I would struggle within, I could feel myself as a being inside my head , it's very hard to explain..I would feel terrified about that, it's a feeling, that you are parralized and you KNOW, something is gonna happen.

The first time I felt it, I was a kid or a teenager, don't even know how old I was, I told it my mum , asking her what it was ( I thought that was something, everybody is experiencing ,and asked her what it was, but she told me I was dreaming.

It happened a few times again .The strangest thing happened, when I was 16 or 17, at some point before New Years ( maybe New Years Eve ??), I was in a hospital , I remember spending New Years there, so it might have happened on New Years Eve.

I remember I was hearing a horrible screaming ( whenever I think of it again ,I get terrified ) and then that feeling that I can't move, my eyes opened, it's dark, but I can see the wall in front of my eyes, just can't move, I desperately want to move, but can't, and then....that strange and horrible shadow !!! I was very scared, I felt like that black shadow came into me, or was above me, I can't say what exact it was, but it WAS real and at that point I thought it was ...a bad ghost or something like this.

After a while ( can not say how long exactly it lasted ) I could finaly move, but was so scared, that I couldn't fall asleep all night long. That screem of a women , that shadow have been so real and so strange , like nothing I've ever seen and experienced !!

I've had a few times the same feeling of waking up and I couldn't move, but never saw a shadow again.

Well again, last year , before New Years EVE ( New Years Eve again !!) I had a similar experience. It was at the end of December 2001, or even New Years Eve 2001/2002, just a few weeks ago.

I had that feeling of going down ( back or forward, don't know) a black tunnel, everything was spinning around ( but not me) , I was going SOMEWHERE , but was very scared and I knew I had to go back right away , otherwise I wouldn't ever be able to come back .Then I felt I was falling down ( maybe downn, back to my body ??) and then I felt myself back in my body, I fell into it and I "woke up" ,I remember laying in my bed ,seeing the closet in front of my eyes, my eyes opened, but I CAN'T move again . Well ,I knew I had to do something, again I was struggeling inside me. And then I started kind of shaking myself ( myself, inside of me ,but not my body) very strong and ...finaly I could move my arms and legs.

That night I could hardly fall asleep, 'coz I'd always had the feeling, ( just before I "fall" asleep ), that I kinda loose myself, I knew, I would have the same feeling that I couldn't move again. I sometimes wake up ( actually not sometimes, but very often ) and feel myself scared, just as waking up would be a stress. It's hard to explain , but one can only understand that feeling, if he or she has had the same experience.

I also often dream that I'm flying ( but never see my body, no wings or moving my arms to fly), just feel I'm floating , like a feather in the wind , I can move to a certain direction, but have no absolute control over my body , or whatever it is. Once again it's hard to explain.

It might be a little hard to read what I 've just wrote, first of all because English is my 4th foreign language and it's hard for me to express my thoughts, the other thing is , I wrote all that within 10 minutes, didn't think about beeing fluent. Hope you got the picture what's all about.

I'm 25 years old now , live in Lithuania ( Eastern Europe ) .

Sorry, if I've bothered you with my story.

Thank you for reading

Alina