NDE or OBE?

From:	Amanda Briglevic [vic@csd.uwm.edu]
Type:	NDE
Sent:	Monday, November 08, 1999 12:00 PM
Subject:	NDE or an OBE?

My way of thinking has completely changed in these past few weeks. I was brought up as a Catholic, however I have rarely attended mass in the past 5-6 years. I am not a big religious freak. I'm not a bad person either. I believe in doing what is good and I try to help people whenever I can. My story is not made up. You don't have to believe it if you don't want to. I just want to know if anyone else has experienced a similar event. I should also let you know that I've never taken any drugs (I'm too busy to have time for that) nor do I have any health ailments. I'm perfectly healthy. Now I want to tell you my story:

About three weeks ago, I went to sleep and had the most vivid dream, obe, or nde, whatever you want to call it, I've ever had. As I drifted off to sleep I felt my body become very light. The next thing I remember, I was standing in the middle of, what appeared to be, a typical office setting. People were at their desks typing on computers and just walking by me like I wasn't there. At that point, something overcame me. I had the notion that I had died. I was amazed how life still goes on after you are gone. 

I remember while experiencing this, there was a guide who communicated with me. This guide was a person in physical body. In fact, I never saw them throughout my whole experience. I didn't talk to my guide by opening my mouth. Instead, our words were received by our thoughts. I didn't know who this guide was, yet, I felt comfortable around them. I remember throughout the whole experience, wanting to see my fianc�.

 I kept asking the guide where he was and the guide replied "He's not here yet." Still in this office setting, I was confused as to what I was supposed to do. So I asked the guide "What am I supposed to do?" The guide replied, "Whatever you want. You can do things now that you could only dream of before." I then asked the guide, "If I'm dead then where's God?" The guide replied, "There is no one God. We are all God." 

Confused by this I instantly got one feeling that described all my questions. My feeling was that we (our souls) are all energy. There is good energy and bad energy. Just like there are good and bad people. The good people generally tried to do the best they could in their life. They learned as much knowledge as they could and tried to make their existence with others, as pleasant as possible. The bad people are the ones who did not learn from their mistakes. They made their existence around others terrible. They surrounded themselves around self-pity, doubt, and fear. They chose to be unstable. 

All this made perfect sense to me. It seemed that here in our "reality" we distinguish this good and bad by labeling it as "God" and the "Devil". After knowing this, I still was afraid to see what awaited me. I remained in that typical office setting. 

The guide replied, "As long as you are afraid, you will stay here in this setting. This is not reality, but just an illusion. Your life is an illusion. It's a testing ground for your knowledge. Only to you it exists." 

After knowing this I chose to go with the guide. I remember there was an elevator located in front of me on the office floor I was standing in.

When the elevator door opened I went in. I remember seeing something I can't describe in words. The best thing I can do is say that there was a bright array of colors and strange forms. The guide told me I was free. I could do whatever I wanted. I had a feeling this was the ultimate place of learning. I felt excited. There was so much to know, so much more to experience. It seemed like graduate school to kindergarten. Where I was was graduate school and what we know as reality was kindergarten. 

I could fly, I could walk. I could run at the speed of light and stop just as quickly. I remember I wanted to see my body. All I could see were my hands that I held out in front of myself. They were like a bright, iridescent light. As I was still in these colors, I remember seeing my great-grandfather (whom I've never met). He didn't say a word, but he took my hand and we flew really fast through all these colors. I felt an indescribable freedom. I remember coming to a place that was familiar to me then but now when I recall upon it, I don't know where, or what it was. 

I remember there was a huge field with wheat or tall dried out grass. The sky was gray and cloudy. It looked like the month of October or November. If this makes any sense, the place I was looking at was what it looked like 100 years into the future after my death. It's hard to explain, but it makes sense to me when I think about it. I remember a barn being torn down and some enormous structure being built in place of it. I then flew away. 

I remember whatever I wanted to do I could do. If I wanted to go into outer space, I could. If I wanted to see my family members, I was there. If I wanted to talk to anyone else, I could. There was nothing holding me back and it was an incredible feeling. I felt so light and always excited, like a little kid. 

After all this excitement I wanted to be with my fianc� so that he could experience all these wonders with me. The guide then said, "He's almost here." I remember I flew back to that office setting again and stood in front of the elevator doors. When the doors opened I saw my fianc� and he smiled as if he were delighted to see me. 

Again, I'm not sure what this all means. I have a different outlook on things since I had this dream, OBE, or NDE. A week after I had this experience my grandmother, whom I was very close to, passed away in her sleep. It puts me at ease to know that she is probably in the same place that I only experienced a week before her death. 

If anyone has any type of similar experience or think they know what might have happened, please e-mail me. 

Since this experience, my thoughts on life have changed completely. I no longer take things so seriously. I try to enjoy the beauty around me everyday. I have a feeling that's what we're all supposed to do.