A Visit from My Idol

Name:            Ashley Vanover
Email:           kurt_cobain93@hotmail.com
Location:        Campbellsville, KY
Type:            Ghost
Date:            Tuesday, April 04, 2000
Time:            09:02 PM

About a year ago on April 4th, I was home alone and miserable. 

It had been five years since my idol and obsession, Kurt Cobain, had committed suicide in 1994. I was so obsessed with him that it was taking over my life (I am 15) and I had to seek psychiatric help for this. It was around 3AM when I decided to "call back" Kurt.

 Maybe if I could just see him, or feel his presence around me, I could better help myself to get over him. I started praying and begging for him to come to me. I did some other things, involving magic and rituals, that I won't repeat for fear someone else will try them. Nothing happened and I went to sleep disappointed. 

I was awaken by the sound of knocking on my door. I got up and opened it and what I saw is still with me. It was Kurt, but after he shot himself. It was horrible. He had no face, but a bloody mess. He pointed at me and hissed "You don't love me". I screamed and shut the door. Then I woke up. 

Some think this was all a dream, but I know better. It was to real to have been nothing but a dream. It must have had some meaning, some message that Kurt wanted to give me. 

Maybe someday I will understand.