My spirit guide

From: Marla (pincushion_19@webtv.net)
Story type: Angel
Location: Milwaukee, WI
Source: Form Submission

My story of my spirit guide/ gaurdian angel starts September 20, 2001. He was a very special person to me, perhaps even a soulmate. He died in NYC Sept. 20, 2001, searching for his brother, who was a missing NYC firefighter.

I was out at a local hangout, with friends... not very unusual. I was approached over and over by a man... who, at the time, creeped me out. Later to find out, he was who I believe Chris, in some human form not of his own... he gave me a "gift" that night, but that's not what this story is about. Two days later, I found out Chris had passed over. I started feeling his presence only a few days later. Lying in bed with me as I tried to go to sleep. Sitting in the passenger seat of my car. Just with me, always.

I am an artist. One day I sat with a paper and pencils in front of me. I got a vision of a muscular, long dark haired man with large black wings. The pencils seemed to almost move themselves across the paper, forming the image of my "Dark Angel". The whole drawing took me less than 15 minutes, with good detail included. The fastest drawing I ever did. At the bottom, it was titled "Dark Angel", and I wrote To Chris, Love you, Marla.

One night a few months ago, I was sitting in my bedroom, meditating. I talked to Chris, and asked his to physically give some a sign he was around me, at 9pm that night. I was sitting later watching TV, and reading a book. I started to see flashing out of the corner of my eye. Suspecting it was just the TV, I didn't look up. When it kept up, I noticed it wasn't coming from the direction of the TV, but the hallway. I looked up to see the hallway light flickering wildly. I then looked at the clock, and saw 9:05pm. Tears formed in my eyes, and I asked Chris if it was him, if he was here for me. The light went out, then on, then out, etc, in 5 second increments. It continued for about 1 hour. It happened every night, at the same times, from 9pm til 10pm, until he blew out the light. Then it was over.

Chris used to sing a song for me... Heaven, by Warrant. A month or so ago, I was at a friends house, and that song came on. I felt Chris immediately become very strong around me. I started to tear, but then remembered Chris told me that he didn't like to see me sad because he is gone. So I pushed the tears back. I could feel him touching me, putting his arms around me. All of a sudden, I felt so close to him, closer than I ever had, and I felt this intense inner peace. I realized he was within me. I just sat the for about 10 minutes, feeling more peaceful and happy than I ever had before. Then he left me, and I was thrust back into the room, where I was before. This was the last experience I have had, although he is with me every day, and I feel him every day.

I know he is guiding me through life, and keeping me safe. He will always be alive within me, and others. This story is dedicated to Chris "Corpse" Mu�z -- 9/20/2001 I love you and miss you very much!!!