Being Saved

Name:            shelley
Email:           shelleyf@westernequities.com
Location:        church
Type:            Angel
Date:            Thursday, April 20, 2000
Time:            06:52 PM

I was about 14 when I came to live with my real dad, his wife & daughter, Kelly. They were Christians and I thought I was but had never been to church but always somehow knew there was a God. 

Kelly asked me one day if I was "saved" and I laughed at her thinking she was taking it too seriously. But after going to church for awhile and learning that we are to accept Jesus into our hearts and lives is what makes us different from those who just "believe" there is a god and those who are actually His. So I wanted to give my life to Him but at our church they always gave an alter call at the end of service and asked you to come up front if you wanted to give your life to God and I was completely TERRIFIED to go in front of people like that. But at night I would asked God in my prayers to please come into my heart and lead my life and I thought that was enough. 

Well one Sunday the pastor did the alter call a little differently. He asked us to bow our heads and hum while he talked and asked if there was anyone who wanted Jesus in their life to just raise your hand and I thought "okay that's easy" (I was sitting in the front pew that day because we had come late) so I raised my hand and thought with relief "oh, that's over" but then he asked if this person would just come forward now and all of a sudden the worst fear I have ever felt in my life came over me and I knew everyone "knew" it was me and I was terrified!! But the next second I felt two very very large hands touch the center of my back and gently push me forward and the very second they touched me I felt overwhelmed with peace and confidence. 

I went forward without any fear and repeated the words the pastor said. And what was even weirder is that I knew that an angel had touched me but I was unable to tell anyone. I had a sense that I was not to say anything to anyone. People came up to talk to my dad but I still couldn't really talk about it. I got in the car in the back seat and remember looking out the back window as if to see something and I asked in my head why couldn't I say anything. 

Still to this day I don't know. But that was 20 years ago and since then I have had a few other experiences. But I am no longer afraid of audiences and even sing now in front of people and have much more confidence. 

We are definitely loved and looked out for by a God that is so very divine!