To Travel or not to Travel?

From: Susan (randall1025@yahoo.com)
Story type: Out of Body Experience
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Source: Form Submission
Date submitted: Mon Oct  3 20:54:49 2011

I'm 20 years old and have always been curious about out of body experiences and astral travel. I first stumbled upon the topic about a year ago and tried to travel for a while, but then gave up.

About a week ago, I was at my boyfriend's house and we had just hooked up. Both of us couldn't sleep at first so the dosage of sex was exactly what we needed to relax. Within a few minutes, he had fallen asleep and I wasn't far behind.

I was in such a lovely, relaxed state and I could feel myself falling asleep. I was admiring the hypnotic images and colors in my head, because I knew this meant that sleep was not far off. All of a sudden, everything got strange.

The feeling in body shifted and although I was still relaxed, I felt lighter and lighter. My body started to tingle and the sound of electricity was playing in my ears. My body felt like it was completely asleep but now my mind was wide-awake. I became frightened because all of a sudden, I became acutely aware of another presence in the room.

I literally felt like I was losing myself and losing control of my body because I felt paralyzed. I shook myself from the paralysis and was able to move my limbs again but the strange feeling had not vanished. I still felt like someone else was in the room.

I have a tendency to work myself up into severe anxiety attacks and this is exactly what was happening. Instead of telling myself to calm down, I became so scared. My eyes were shut... yet I still could see. I saw my boyfriends arms, his body, my own arms, the bed and the room around me. Only my vision was wavy, almost like there was a sort of gas being leaked into the air. This is when I became positive that someone other presence was in the room too. This push me into a full blown panic attack.

There were voices, talking to me, children laughing and people whispering. I was convinced that this has to be some sort of schizophrenic breakdown and I must have lost my mind. Images were already playing through my head from the start but once I became anxious, the images turned into terrible things. Horrible things.

The more frightened I became, the more I felt as though something evil was sucking the energy out of me. I would try to remedy my anxiety by thinking of peaceful images. Every time I tried this, within a minute or two they were literally drained from my mind and replaced with dark, black nothingness.

I saw people dying. I also experienced suicide from the victim's eyes. I saw horrible, horrible things.

I know that this entire entry is scattered and not put together well, but I researched what I experienced the next day and it sounds like I had the beginning phases of an out of body experience, that my soul was somewhat detached from physical body. If we are frightened during an OBE or during astral travel, we are more likely to attract negative entities to our bedsides.

Ever since that night, I have had trouble sleeping because the nights where I'm not interested/brave enough to try to travel on my own, it starts to happen.

Can someone, anyone, please give me some reassurance about my experience? Maybe some advice, or some kind words to let me know that I don't have to be scared? I would love to travel, and I feel as though my first, somewhat, experience ruined the entire thing for me because now I am scared out of my mind. Anything would help, please.