The Essence Of an Ever Loving Presence

From: Julie Pozehl (jkpozi@hotmail.com)
Story type: Angel
Location: Lincoln Ne
Source: Form Submission
Date submitted: Sat Jun 25 05:40:46 2011

It was one of the lowest times in my life while I was going through me divorce. My Ex was extremely selfish and emotionally abusive to both my children and myself. It was a night when I thought I couldn't bear any more emotional pain and I was completely numb. I just got off the phone from yet another verbal tongue lashing from him when I let the phone drop to the floor and laid back on my bed and shut my eyes. All I could see was nothing but blackness and felt so numb I thought I could just lay down and die that night.

I remember lying there wondering what good it was doing for me to pray so hard every night if the pain kept getting worse. I was at my wits end. How could I still have so much unbearable pain when I was praying hard every night? When was all this praying going to pay off I thought to myself? I remember wondering "should I or shouldn't I say yet another prayer? What good would it do any how? Then I drifted off to sleep without praying.

My mind started to drift off into something alot different then just a dream. It was more like a vision. Suddenly I was standing in a dark forest and off in the distance was a very small but extremely bright light. As I was trying to focus on this light I felt an ever loving presence to the right of me standing at my right shoulder. He was quite tall and very groomed and handsome with the bluest eyes and wore white biblical attire around him that was secured with the same colored belt.

He looked down at me with very loving eyes and the warmest smile you could ever imagine. He felt very fatherly to me and I suddenly felt very safe and loved. He asked me what was wrong and I told him that I have never been so blue and that I didn't know where my life was headed or even which way to go. He smiled down at me and said to me with a gentle giggle, "My child here is what I want you to do. I want you to take a small tablet and a pen and I want you to write down 8 things that you could do. Then every time you do one of them I want you to cross it off your list. Once you have crossed off the 8th one you will be where you need to be." I looked up and asked him how he knew this. He just looked down at me still smiling and disappeared. Upon his disappearance he showed me an image of what I looked like through his eyes. It literally took my breath away for I was to my amazement very beautiful, and as I awoke, I found myself whispering, "Oh My goodness that was Him."

From that day forward I will never question whether or not I should pray. I am a firm believer now and forever. And as far as whether or not I am where I need to be, I am no where close but at least I am not where I used to be. I still have yet things that need to be crossed off my list. But I will continue to do so til I am where I need to be.