Boy Angel

From: Texas (Txblonde25@hotmail)
Story type: Angel
Location: Wherever I am
Source: Form Submission

A few years ago I did not beleive in anything, not God, Angels, Lucifer, not even myself. It was a very sad time. I went through many nights wishing I could die or just live in nothingsness. I felt that no feeling would be better then the mixed rage and saddness that I felt most of the time.

Then out of nowhere my mom got pregnate(okay not out of nowhere she is married). And we found out that my new sibling might have Downs Syndrom. For the first time I stopped caring about myself and worried only about her. I wanted a happy healthy baby sister/brother one who would never feel pain or saddness that I knew would come with this disease. I knew these feelings all too well to want anyone eles to feel them.

One night as I lay in bed thinking about everything, I saw a boy my age standing outside my room. I got up and followed him, not feeling anything, a perfect bliss. He approached me as I stood still just outside my door, afriad that if I moved he would leave. He took my hand in his and softly kissed my lips. I felt a burn on my arm, where he had placed his other hand, and looked, a small welt had formed, which still shows as a scar. The boy looked at me and somehow I just knew he was my gaurdian Angel. So I named him Angel as I had nothing eles to go by.

My sister was born a little while later. Without disease, and oddly enough the only thing wrong with her was a small unexplainable welt on her left arm, exactly when my scar is. hers did not scar however. Now when I get scared or sad or anything where I just want the whole world to forget I live I lay in bed and softly call "Angel help me". And every time he appears and every time I am washed with nothingness, and later happiness. And I knew without a doubt that he was really mine when I moved to Canada and he followed.